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i'm wide awake. don't want to be... wierd stuff um ..... someone from russia added a link to my blog from a porn site..... please remove that at once. I have no clue what key words made you find my blog and I do not care. Go away and don't come back.

Beyond that... It seems to me that I can only really write when I'm in need of venting or frustrated. And this doesn't bother me so much (I am used to it) but I don't think I can work very well under those conditions... idk. As is the goal of everyone I want to be happy. I want to live a life that is full of peace. And yes I believe that helping others is important, more important to me is helping people to think correctly, or at least "more" correctly as we know I am not perfect.

 But getting people interested in my thoughts... so that in turn they will desire to think critically... this goal will eventually have to suffer for my sake. I still have a life to live. I still have personal goals that do not coincide with being a professional muse. I have one more book to write.. it has a true value, in and of itself... a value to the reader and a value for me to write it. And after that at some point I want to be done it. Done with writing and done with helping others to think. Of course on a personal level I will always be the "wise counselor" to my friends and family. But that is a gift of love.I will always be there for them, a person who listens to problems that they can't see around. But I cannot do that in a public manner. I do not want to.

I know what I do is infectious, at least to some people... I know this because at some point I was infected with the desire to think critically. So perhaps in turn my work will continue on in spirit. As people who read it might catch whatever it is that I have and pass it on. And if not I will be unable to say I never tried, that I never did my part to further the human race in some extremely small way.

as confucious said

"If you think in terms of a year, plant a seed; if in terms of ten years, plant trees; if in terms of 100 years, teach the people."


I would love to think that I am encouraging at least some of whoever is inspired, to teach the people as people like confucious have inspired me. He wasn't just thinking in terms of one hundred years, he was thinking in terms of thousands. He was planting seeds in the hearts and minds of others, he was teaching the people to teach. Hopefully I can do the same.